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                | 1.Q | Tell me 
                  about the first time you remember being thrilled. |  | 
         
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                | 1.A | I want 
                  to say that it was on a Matterhorn type of ride at Tivoli when 
                  I was three, but I more remember my drawing of that ride than 
                  the ride itself. Still, the trip to Copenhagen yields the winner 
                  with the clearest details. I had asked my father’s permission 
                  to carry the Pentax camera (probably an MX) while I went to 
                  the bathroom. Being three, I found it was tough to use the urinal 
                  with a camera around my neck, so I set it down behind a pillar 
                  while I urinated. A moment later I went back, but the camera 
                  was gone. No one had turned it in, and we had a train to catch. 
                  In psychosomatic terms, I felt the burning of blood rushing 
                  to my face and ears, and my heart was racing. I probably had 
                  a lot of endorphins rushing through me, given that I was terribly 
                  emotional and suddenly weak (when I found out that, disappointed 
                  as they were, my parents weren’t going to yell at me once 
                  the initial shock subsided for them). |  | 
         
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                | 2.Q | What’s the slightest thing 
                  to have thrilled you? |  | 
         
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                | 2.A | A look 
                  from someone I found attractive. It’s there and gone in 
                  no time, but the effects on pulse are immense |  | 
         
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                | 3.Q | What’s the most frightening 
                  yet thrilling thing you’ve done? |  | 
         
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                | 3.A | I can’t 
                  isolate a single event, but many fall into the driving-and-losing-control 
                  category. In a recent instance, I was driving on a curved freeway 
                  onramp during a light rain storm. In third gear and going about 
                  30 MPH (maybe as much as 35), I started to lose control in the 
                  (right) bend, with my rear wheels (it is a 5-speed front-wheel-drive 
                  vehicle) fishtailing toward the low curb between my lane and 
                  a merging onramp. I shifted down to second gear without using 
                  the brakes, and then turned gently to the left while letting 
                  the engine slow the car down. The car behind me was within 30 
                  feet, quite possibly less, but I remember thinking that braking 
                  would make me lose control and make him hit me, yet accelerating 
                  would have kept me out of control. Turning too much was a risk, 
                  too. I was miles away before I came down from that thrill. There 
                  are other, better, examples, I am sure, but they are not coming 
                  to mind right now. |  | 
         
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                | 4.Q | Tell me 
                  why you’re not completely sensible. |  | 
         
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                | 4.A | I teach 
                  English to college students. What right-minded (sensible) person 
                  spends extra time and money on schooling to qualify for a job 
                  that pays less than he could make in almost any other industry? |  | 
         
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                | 5.Q | What’s 
                  the most uninhibited thing you’ve ever done? |  | 
         
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                | 5.A | Prior to 
                  a car’s arrival, begun a sexual encounter in a somewhat 
                  full parking lot. Outside of the car. |  | 
         
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                | 6.Q | What have 
                  you considered doing for pleasure but were too concerned about 
                  the risks? |  | 
         
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                | 6.A | I have 
                  never really had that problem. I have backed away from climbing 
                  because I realized that my skills were too poor and my backpack 
                  was unbalancing me, but I had stopped enjoying that a few feet 
                  below. |  | 
         
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                | 7.Q | Describe 
                  the event in one sentence (there’s time to expand later) |  | 
         
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                | 7.A | I arrested 
                  a 15-year-old for stealing a pack of cigarettes. |  | 
         
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                | 8.Q | Tell me 
                  a bit about yourself around this time. |  | 
         
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                | 8.A | I was married 
                  (first marriage) and working as a licensed store detective (limited 
                  powers of arrest). I had recently finished my AA degree and 
                  was finding that not many places wanted to hire me, so I had 
                  taken whatever job I could get. I liked computer games (still 
                  do) and split my time between playing those and spending time 
                  with my wife (when not working, of course). My (now) ex-wife 
                  was a fairly quiet person, so we took evening walks and watched 
                  TV together, rather than engaging in thrill-seeking (sensation-seeking, 
                  if you prefer). |  | 
         
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                | 9.Q | List the 
                  sequence of events leading up to your thrill. Try to remember 
                  how you felt at each stage. The smallest detail could be important 
                  (this is your chance to expand). |  | 
         
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                | 9.A | It was 
                    a hot day for Seattle, easily in the mid-90s, and most of 
                    the people who were coming into the grocery store where I 
                    was working on Queen Anne Hill were wearing bicycle short 
                    and t-shirts. The result was the not many people had places 
                    to conceal stolen good, and it was turning out to be a boring 
                    late afternoon shift. I had a few appropriate non-perishables 
                    in my basket when I arrived near the front of the store. There 
                    I saw a teenager walk in wearing a wool cap and a down jacket—completely 
                    wrong for the weather. I got into a position from which I could watch him, my heart 
                    rate higher since right after I spotted him. At each stage, 
                    I dutifully noted the time. He peered over the cordon at one 
                    of the unused check stands, looking at the tobacco display. 
                    Then, he moved to the adjacent unused check stand, reached 
                    over, and plucked a pack of Camels from the display. He walked 
                    behind me and put his hands in his pockets, pulling them out 
                    as he passed to the other side on his way to the door. His 
                    hands were empty then. I followed him as he moved toward the door, picking up speed 
                    a little and dropping off my basket on the way. A few people 
                    were watching me, probably wondering what was happening as 
                    I passed them. I felt a little giddy—light-headed from 
                    the endorphin rush. As I headed out the door, I wondered whether 
                    or not the kid was armed, and if he was, was it worth the 
                    $6/hr I was getting to confront him. Still, I rushed around 
                    to get in front of him on the sidewalk, placing my right hand 
                    on his right shoulder as I identified myself. (That allows 
                    me to push back if he tries turning left and lay him on his 
                    back in he tries turning right. The other option would be 
                    to return to the store.) He looked at the sidewalk a few feet ahead of him and off 
                    to his left, trying to explain that he had an appointment 
                    down the street in five minute’s time. I told him that 
                    he would be late for his appointment or miss it, and that 
                    he could either walk back into the store with me or have me 
                    walk him back in handcuffs (he did not know that I could not 
                    legally handcuff a minor). After continued evasions, he relented 
                    and turned back to the store. At that moment the rush left 
                    me, and my knees almost gave out. He turned his head to say 
                    something to me just before we walked through the doors, but 
                    I forced myself to look as if I was in better control of my 
                    gait than was actually the case and motioned for him to keep 
                    moving. While the rest was procedural crap—call for wants and 
                    warrants, get information, prepare a police report, contact 
                    family and/or police because minors cannot be released to 
                    the street—he gave me a little troubled that got the 
                    endorphins pumping again. He claimed to be blameless and demanded 
                    to know what he had stolen. Normally, we would let the perps 
                    confess, possibly showing more than we knew they had stolen, 
                    but I had tracked him from entry to exit, so I was not worried. 
                    I laid out the entire timeline, angrily and forcefully, but 
                    that broke him. When his mother, who was not going to pick 
                    him up until her husband got home, learned that the police 
                    had arrived (they had been delayed due to a shift change), 
                    she said to let the police deal with it. The tough kid started 
                    bawling like a baby when they cuffed him. I am guessing he 
                    had much the same endorphin rushes as I, though at different 
                    times and for different reasons. |  | 
         
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                | 10.Q | What were 
                  your thoughts and feelings at the precise moment of thrill? |  | 
         
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                | 10.A | A “Oh 
                  fuck! What if he has a gun? A knife I can handle, but not a 
                  gun.” |  | 
         
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                | 11.Q | What did 
                  you do afterwards? |  | 
         
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                | 11.A | When they 
                  finally carted the little brat away, I smiled, breathed deeply, 
                  and did a little victory jig (with the store manager safely 
                  out of the room). |  | 
         
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                | 12.Q | What were 
                  the risks? |  | 
         
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                | 12.A | Life, limb. 
                  Nothing much. |  | 
         
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                | 13.Q | What did 
                  you imagine other people thought of you during and after the 
                  event? |  | 
         
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                | 13.A | Store 
                    patrons before peak: “What the hell is doing running 
                    through the store like that? The freak!” Store patrons after peak: “Maybe I should put this 
                    candy bar back or pay for it. He’d embarrass me. Perp at my peak: “Oh shit. No. Why’d this bastard 
                    have to get me?” Store manager: “He got that kid? We’ve been after 
                    him for a year.” (based on the manager’s comments 
                    after the fact) |  | 
         
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                | 14.Q | How often 
                  do you think about the event, and why? |  | 
         
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                | 14.A | Perhaps 
                  three or four times per year. It comes up when I am lecturing 
                  about personal experience essays. When I was an undergraduate, 
                  I had to write a personal experience piece for a journalism 
                  class, limiting myself to 10 modifiers, so I wrote about that 
                  experience. Mine was the paper the professor read to the class. |  | 
         
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                | 15.Q | Some people 
                  probably don’t understand how such a thing can thrill 
                  you; explain it to them. |  | 
         
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                | 15.A | The thrill 
                  is in the not knowing. I didn’t know whether or not he 
                  was armed (later, in the same store, another person chased a 
                  thief down and stopped him before the thief had gotten to his 
                  weapon: a used needle crawling with hepatitis-B). I didn’t 
                  know if he would fight, run, or surrender, but there aren’t 
                  many other options. It’s the egotistical thrill of being 
                  right and of winning. I never wanted to be a police officer, 
                  even as a child. This was a chance to get paid (peanuts) to 
                  test myself against the people who steal $20B annually in the 
                  U.S. (possibly much more these days), driving up retail prices. |  | 
         
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                | 16.Q | What three 
                  changes could have made the experience better, and why? |  | 
         
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                | 16.A | 1) He had 
                  managed to steal more without my seeing and then fessed up. 2) He had started a fight. (OK, that’s scary to realize)
 3) He had been armed. (Yet more frightening)
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